Living.LovingandredW.ine

There is nothing like taking a steaming hot shower at 2 in the morning after coming in from the freezing cold… only to then jump in to a warm bed next to the one you love, give him a kiss and watch him sleep a while.PURE.BLISS. There is NO.TH-Y-NG. quite like it. My little piece of Heaven this side of eternity x

So last night I had the Australian rugby team come to have dinner in my restaurant… a group of 37 beefed up guys. I was expecting to be more excited than I was when they walked in, but alas that was not the case. I found myself constantly thinking about him. Is that normal?? I doubt it!!! Oh well, it was a good night none the less. Took a couple of photos and watched them drink a whole lot of my alcohol stock away. 

So anyway, he is away tonight… all the way in Birmingham and I miss him. Wont see him till Monday morning. Funny how you really really realise how much someone means to you when you do not have them around. Waiting for his phone call. I asked him to call, so i trust he will.

YaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaY :)) He just called, just got off the phone with him and all is right with the world again haaaaaaaaa *sigh* :) Oh how I love this man. Now I can sleep right. Life with him is so worthwhile… he makes everything beautiful x

So last night we he decided that we would go to Stratford, the new Westfield shopping mall… it was good fun, but tiring. After a whole 2 and a half hours, we walked out with a massaging ‘rolly’ ball thing… good buy I reckon :) Went out for dinner afterwards to Ping Pong for some yummy dimsum :)) Funny thing happened though, my pumpkino thought he saw Craig david lol… apparently the guy sitting a few seats away from us was ‘Craig David. It was quite cute how he was soooo convinced, he even went on the internet on my phone to look for a picture of the man for comparisons… I still don’t think it was ‘Tha Craig’… oh well it was entertaining anyway. 

Im growing and maturing with this man I have come to call my own. He is teaching me so much. I love his heart, his ability to be genuine and no one other than himself. He is fast asleep right now and watching him sleep puts the biggest smile on my face. I love how he smiles in his sleep every time I give him a kiss.

I would not trade him for anything… NOTHING.

Wow, what a crazy 6 or so months… I don’t even know where to begin… All I know is that he is now my EVERYTHING. Lost for words. So much has happened. My life seems to have evolved and continues to do so, he has been lighting up my world in a way I never knew. He has changed everything and his love for me consumes me. The way he looks at me, the way he says so much without saying a word… I am blessed to have him. He is my second chance at it all… Joy, happiness, success… LIFE. 

I LOVE HIM…. Comp.lete.Ly

At work right now and can’t wait for everyone to leave… the ‘joys’ of working in a restaurant :( Not feeling too well either… I reckon it’s the scallops I chowed down earlier… ate them a bit too fast with my anchovy pizza thing O_o … oh well, nothing a good cup of tea can’t fix… I hope. Miss him, had a great 2 days nights with him… he makes me laugh… brings a lot of joy to my life… good times :)

Just finished doing a happy dance…. again:) Pure Bliss…. HE IS BAAAAAAACK!!!! He came back yesterday, but I had to work… boohoo…. oh well, I get to see him today. What a feeling. The weather is great today, sun is shining, skies are blue and the birdies are chirping… I guess he kept his word, he promised to bring the sun with him :) Anyway, even if the sun was not shining, my soul would be. Got quite a few things to try do today, but the number one thing is to spend as much time with him as possible —-> Random song *Fairytale by Liquid Deep*… its been playing in my head:) 

What can I say :)

Im really tired though right now and I think it’s showing on my face… been over working I reckon. But everything will be well…. infact….

TRUE STORY:)

*Happy dance continues*

What a LEGEND this man was… LEGEND!!! 

Had a great early night tonight… well last night to be precise now that its 1.26am. Loved working with Lou and had a great evening. The best was having a glass of wine to end the evening, it was well deserved I must say:) So spoke to him today and he made me smile… best of all he reassured me:) This thing called life, it’s a funny thing! Lets see where this journey and new chapter of my life takes me…I’m expecting great things… great and mighty things to happen for me:) TRUE STORY!! 

So I had this great idea of getting him something, but checked online to see if its still available and its not for the next month boohoo:( … will keep looking out for it!! Meeting up with Febs tomorrow today for a catchup and some strawberry you know what… YUMMY… sooo can’t wait:D Will be good fun! The funniest thing happened, an old school friend facebooked me telling me he saw my picture in a hair magazine and sure enough it was me:) Yes…. cute, glorious me:) *watch.this.space* hahaha… true though *watch.this.space* 

Random side note ——> Thought I saw a tiny tortoise on my roof earlier on today… nearly pissed myself with excitement, but alas the excitement did not last long after I realized I was having a daft moment… tortoises cannot climb walls… nor rooftops for that matter… but I assume you already knew that! Anyway, it really did look like a tortoise!! A sunbathing tortoise… funny thought that lol

So yes…I MISS HIM… 3 more days :)

Lionel Ritchie - Stuck on you…. thank you

It’s kinda dull without you… Come back already

Peperampi x

Since I’ve been back to work I’ve just had no time to blog… it’s such a shame really:( Work is just taking to much of my time… I need to do something about it! I just don’t get time for me. A lot has happened over the last few days…. Lost my bank cards, had ‘dinner’ with a friend at McDonalds, lost my oyster card, bought a polo shirt, had strawberry ciders with friends and laughed every single day:) All in all it was a good couple of days… I squeezed in whatever kind of ‘social life’ I could manage. So Im working in HighGate tonight at one of our other branches and I must say Im looking forward to it… will be working with Lou, it’s been a while. 

Random side note ——> I love my lips *Just saying*…. anyway, its a beautiful sunny day outside and I wish I was in the park somewhere drinking strawberry ciders (they are truly the best kind) and watching the clouds form and disappear again and having the cool breeze gently blow against me… such joy.

Good day and Good God x

So I’m back to work today after 4 glorious days off… I must say I absolutely enjoyed doing nothing for the last 4 days… pure bliss it was:) Getting ready to go to work and guess what?? Finally got the hair did:D It doesn’t look anything spectacular, but boy is it better than it was before!! Oooh and did my nails too… painted them white!! Why not?? Didn’t do my beauty regiment yesterday tho boohoo… but I do feel beautiful today, lets hope that lasts. Im trying to get myself into a positive happy go lucky mood as the weather is not so happy today:( It should be a good day tho, I got a feeling tonight is going to be a good night *black eyed peas playing in background*… I can feel it in my bones. I miss my febrina tho… work just won’t be the same without her :( Oh well… im sure I’ll see her soon:) Ok time to get this show on the road. 

You can almost hear the sound coming out of my mouth :D

Wow, what a great evening… it’s 2.10am and just came back from leaving my friend to get his bus home… So ended up not going for drinks coz he doesn’t drink anymore (such fun), instead we got chinese and stayed in:) Had a great catch up. Funny how you don’t see someone for a while and when you do meet up it just all kinda fits together. My conversation with him made me think a lot… he challenged me quite a bit. You see, I’m far from where I feel I should be… from where I know I should be, but one thing I know for sure is that I’m on the right path!! In life we go through seasons and the key is knowing which season you are in and listening to that still quiet voice within. My spiritual walk has not been that great of late, well for a while now if I must be honest and it’s really about that time that I get back on track! I miss having a relationship with my God, an actual deep and meaningful relationship with Him where He is my All in All. I plan on getting back on track… to feel Heaven’s heartbeat echoing through my being. Thanks Tindo for the great catch up and lots of laughing… good times :)

There is this saying that says ‘Let go and let God’… I intend on doing just that :)

So I woke up this morning to txts from a special someone saying how much they missed me and in how many days I was going to see them:) It put the sweetest smile on my face… and also had whatsapp msgs from a dear dear friend who is going through quite a lot at the moment. I miss her terribly and wish I could be there with her… these bloody seas that always keep people apart!! It got me thinking how sometimes we all get to these very low places in life where if it were not for the love and fear of God you would start doubting everything! I am so broke right now I don’t even know what to do with myself… well maybe not broke, it’s just that all the money I have has to go to everyone else but me…. bills, rent, direct debits… freaking hell… I need to learn to manage my funds better. The funny thing is I make quite a bit of money, enough for me to live and do what I need to do and still make sure the bills are happy, but I just don’t have a structured way of saving and managing my funds which then leaves me in this state of confusion and ‘brokeness’ haha…. not really a funny situation, but that’s how I will get past it… LAUGH at myself. I used to be a great saver, savist or whatever a person who is good at saving is called, then I allowed a wrong person to ‘handle’ my finances and it kinda went belly up from there… anyway whatever… I suppose this is not a blame game. I just need to sort it out!! From now on I will be better… I have got to!!

Been thinking of what to do today, will probably meet up with a friend later on for a couple of drinks and a catch up… have not seen him for a while. I feel like reading though or maybe playing a bit of my guitar… we’ll see which way the wind blows. On a more serious note I have really got to do something with my hair… it’s looking kinda crazy hey… need to buy a new set of straighteners… the last ones died on me:( boohoo… but we had a good long hair journey together:) And I also need to do something with my face… have not been feeling too pretty lately… you know, the whole I don’t look too pretty phase!! Maybe I should do a deep cleansing, mask and moisturize session and do my nails as well. :D All of a sudden feel better just at that thought!! :) :) :)

So glad that I found you… in the silliest of ways

Pumpkin

So it’s 2am and I can’t sleep… boohoo :( Went downstairs to make some horlicks, so I hope that will help with the in.Somnia o_O Listening to some Joshua Radin as I write this and kinda wondering where my life is heading. Don’t get me wrong, I believe in myself and the gift and power that is within me… I just… sometimes I just worry.a.bit! I would like to believe that is normal. There is soooo much I wanna do, so much that I must achieve and accomplish… it just feels like I haven’t even broken the surface :/ … it’s all on me really, I need to get my.grind.on! There are things I regret, scratch that… no regrets, everything was a learning curve. Life is too awesome to live in regret :) Remember that at any moment you can reinvent yourself… be different… choose a new path. 

Life is about choices…

Take the road.LESS.travelled

ENJOY.EXPERIENCE.BELIEVE

I am a simple individual, I don’t like stress, I don’t like complicating things… love me as I am… allow me the grace to be me and I will give you my all.

John Irving once said “If you care about something you have to protect it - If you are lucky enough to find a way of life you love, you have to have the courage to LIVE it”. So I concluded that it’s real.simple… LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE FIERCELY!! 

“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.”  Louise Erdrich (the painted drum)